I was just a part of it. I never meant to get hurt, but you did. You broke my messy heart and it broke me at all. You came to my life like you meant to stay and show me what love means, but I was wrong. I was totaly wrong. You knew that I would care about you more than I should. You also knew that I would completely adore you.
You never promise me anything. You controled evry word which you said. You said only once that you are in love with me then you regreted it. I was hurt. But honey I was so blind to see the game which you were playing with me. You won. You were the winner of my sadness and brokeness.
Now I know that you didn't deserve to give a shit but I did. And what is worse I still do.
You know, right?
That I'm useless just because you left me here like this. You just left me crying and broken inside because you were not sure about your emotions. So you fucked up with mine. Why not. She's a little girl, she cannot be broken, right? You were wrong.
You said you will be here for me always, that you will never leave your baby panda but guess what? 9 months later I'm crying in my bed watching 'Marley & Me' and thinking about you again. We watched it together like
many films. You were kissing me. We were happy.
What exactly happenned that night? What did I wrong? I loved you too much? I missed you too much? Or I needed you? Was that all wrong? Was wrong that I care? That I believed that some people are made for each other? Maybe I'm only naive..
