Never enough

i never really thought about what i wanted in my life
it all came somhow natural and unexpected
when people leave they often leave scars behind
so after some time I made myself a wall
big concrete wall which stood in front of my heart
so no one was suppossed to pass
and my heart would not shatter into  million pieces
again
scars never healed properly
not those made by you
i kept reopennig them to remind me
that once, for a moment you where there
you were mine
year passed and another one did too
so i burried you in my heighest darkest tower
you were never going to be found again
i planted roses all around you
they should keep me away from you
you became a concrete angal in my deepest part of the heart
there was an ocean between us
once again
and I would drown myself dead if i tried to swim
now you can see on my palms
how many times i tried to defeat those torns
just to get to you
but i never won
war inside me
for you

Only now, we know

it didn't happen over-night
it took time, it took years
there was once a path that led to nowhere
so i burned it as you walked away
back in those days i thought it was the last time
and that we would never find the right way again
i locked my heart
well, at least most of the leftovers
and kept you as a dream
hardly, almost never to be fullfilled
bed of roses grew there
where once your smile used to tickle me
and everytime my memory wandered to you
old scars reopened and bleed as new ones
so i set fire, to burn all the pain away
there was nothing left but dust and smoke
when i thought that it was over me
you hit me with lighting in your eyes
there you are
and finally i know, we know
why it took so long
to find
that only in each others arms
we can be whole (again)