Never enough

i never really thought about what i wanted in my life
it all came somhow natural and unexpected
when people leave they often leave scars behind
so after some time I made myself a wall
big concrete wall which stood in front of my heart
so no one was suppossed to pass
and my heart would not shatter into  million pieces
again
scars never healed properly
not those made by you
i kept reopennig them to remind me
that once, for a moment you where there
you were mine
year passed and another one did too
so i burried you in my heighest darkest tower
you were never going to be found again
i planted roses all around you
they should keep me away from you
you became a concrete angal in my deepest part of the heart
there was an ocean between us
once again
and I would drown myself dead if i tried to swim
now you can see on my palms
how many times i tried to defeat those torns
just to get to you
but i never won
war inside me
for you