Things I wish I had known or someone had told me sooner

you know that feeling when you can't help yourself
just stare into darkness
not knowing what to do next
sometimes it feels like if you didn't even had the power
to fight anymore
so you think about stopping the battle inside you
because you know
it would kill you eventually if nothing would change
but you know as well
that you would die right in that moment you would give up
so you keep fighting
you keep pushing your own limits
you keep yourself silent
for the very reason you want to give up
you know you can't run away
it always finds you
wherever you go
whatever you do
you are overwhelmed
by the look of his ocean blue eyes
and you keep questioning yourself
and your own selfworth because of him
because someone is not able to see
to see the universe in you
you start to think that there is none
you think you are not enough
just because someone is not able to appreciate how wonderful you are
girl just do not let yourslef burn for people who would not even notice
that you are in flames turned to dust